Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future
May 9th
Last night I almost slept in the same bed as him even though he told me he didn’t want to me. But I pulled myself together and got up to get into my bed. He didn’t even say anything. Right before this I bawled my eyes out his chest and I received no words. I understand he doesn’t know what to say right now but he wants to think by himself. I respect that but sleeping in the bed right next to mine in MY dorm room makes it hard for me. But knowing myself… It’s very difficult to ask him to sleep in his own smelly room. So what I plan to start focusing on this week is keeping my room clean, eating healthy, and looking good everyday. I am trying to focus on myself. Over the last couple months my boyfriend stopped complimenting me which killed inside. I gained weight and i stopped hearing about how I looked. I even pointed this out to him and all I got was “you don’t need words to know” WELL YES I DO I AM GIRL. I keep trying to tell him that I have been so clingy because i’m just searching for attention. If he doesn’t give it to then I’ll start going to someone else who will. I can never end relationships by myself because I strive off of them. I love having a boyfriend more than anything. I always think maybe this is the one.. maybe i’ll never be single again. But it’s hard to picture a good ending now. I am always the type of person to think the worse out of a situation and I can’t help it. But I need to take those automatic thoughts and replace them with bible verses that inspire me. Every day I will also post a bible verse that helped me through out the day. That’s it for now. I will post another one tonight. If you are reading this please ignore. This is mean’t for the eyes of no one.
Hi Again
It’s been a very long time since I have been on tumblr. Which means I am here because I am having relationship problems and tumblr is the only way I can vent without getting feedback. Like always I become to dependent. So currently I am trying to push myself away from my boyfriend and hopefully the outcome is good. It’s just odd that he asked for space and I had no choice to accept it. But when I asked for space he didn’t allow it. So I am going to make daily posts about my progress.
